LOVE...

"Tell her that you love her. You've got nothing to lose, and you'll always regret it if you don't."
- Love Actually

I'M WAITING!!!!!

Remember...

"Life is what happens to you while you're waiting for life to happen"

My apartment echoes...echoes...echoes...

So I knew that when I got home on Sunday that my roommate would have officially moved out, but wow...it was sooo empty. Preston loves it b/c he has so much room to run around...I don't love it so much b/c I have no couch to sit on. And since I can't just sit around (the floor is not very comfy) I started packing. Now my living room is lined with boxes and the only things left are my necessities until I move in 2 weeks! WOOHOO!!!

Ok, so sad news is that I won't be able to go to Vegas for my friend's wedding. Good news is that her bachelorette party is in Austin in 2 weeks (sept. 9-11). We are tubing down the river one day and hitting up 6th street at night! I'm so excited! I haven't been to Austin since I was 19! PARTY TIME!!!!

This marathon thing that I was sooo excited about really sucks...the training that is. I am so not a runner so I think I may be walking this sucker! Walking I think I can handle. This weekend I find out who my honor hero is (who I'm running for) so I'm pumped about that. I should be getting my letters out for sponsorship soon since I have a quite a bit of $$ I need to raise! I also found out a sorority sister of mine in Houston is also doing the Phoenx marathon so we are helping eachother out with some moral support!!!

Off to lunch...ta ta for now!!!

Clearing the air...

Ok...I have too many guy friends. I have no room for anymore. If you are a guy and you just want to be my friend, I'm sorry, I'm all full at the time. As soon as their is a vacancy, I'll let you know. I just wanted to clear that up.

Also, if you are a guy and you ask me out on a date, and it's only been about a month or two since your lifetime long, live in, almost got married relationship, then don't bother. Because what will happen is that one night you will have a late night phone conversation with the ex and talk about all the good things from the past and decide that you want to give it another chance with her. HELLO...there is a reason why you aren't together anymore! This is why I also discovered that I couldn't be friends with a long term boyfriend post relationship b/c it's too hard to just be friends without contemplating getting back together regardless of how horrific the break up was or how they cheated or how they don't pick up the towel from the bathroom floor. UGH!

I don't think I'm an ugly person or stupid or boring. I am well educated, have a good career, try to work out pretty regularly, upbeat and I make a mean 3 cheese tortellini (not from scratch). I think I have a lot to offer a relationship...I would totally date myself. In Dallas though, as well as other cities I'm sure, the only way you get noticed is if you are tiny, blonde, wear too much makeup and dress like a skank! Am I bitter...yea...actually I am just a little bit! I'll get over it though, probably by the end of this entry! GRRRR!!!!

Ah...now I feel better...I guess I got a little carried away there, eh?! Ok...off to walk my puppy!

Quote of the day...

"Goals are just dreams with a deadline"

Think about it...

So I finished the 6th Harry Potter book last night. And although it's purely fiction and fantasy, it sparked a fascinating conversation among my friends who also read it. I've been so lucky in my life to have a family, a roof over my head, food on my table, the ability to open up and love and really great people surrounding me. There are so many people who endure so many life altering, if not life endangering, experiences, that they will never have a "normal" life. Of course "normal" is different for everyone. I've never had anything happen to me that would jeopordize how I look at life, or people, or committment. Then there are those who have seen and felt things that nobody will ever understand. How do these people have relationships? I'm sure some can push pass and get on with their lives, but I keep thinking, what if I had something horrible happen to me that nobody would ever have any idea about? Would I be able to get over it and move on or would I dwell on it b/c I was too scared? Does any of this really make sense? I'm sure that's a bit extreme, but just something floating in my head.

**subject change**

So I'm friends with this single guy who has a little girl and he made a comment about her the other day that seriously brought me to tears. He was saying how he loved spending time with her and that she was the most beautiful person he's ever layed eyes on (I'm just summarizing). Then we started talking about being a single parent and how amazing some of these people are. How do these wonderful, brilliant people find a healthy relationship with someone who doesn't have kids and doesn't fully understand what it's like to be a parent? I don't have a clue as to what that feels like! I know that I will be a great mother one day, but I have no idea what it's like to love someone so much and to put them first above all else. I think this is what initially scared me as a single girl with no kids dating people with kids...and as I get older, I meet a lot more guys with kids now! I was afraid that I would be second best, always in competition with their child. That is so selfish of me. I wanted to be the #1 priority in my husband's life. Then I have my mother. She was a single mom at 21. What if my dad hadn't given her a chance? What if he hadn't loved me and accepted that I was part of the package? Where would I be now? Where would my mom be? I just had this preconceived notion that I wouldn't have anything in common with a single parent. It's hard enough finding common ground with friends and family who are parents. At least now I've opened my eyes and my mind a bit more to accept people and their lives although they may not be just like me - and someday I may be a wonderful stepmother...so thanks J!

Karaoke Revolution

So Saturday I had committed to doing nothing...which I was very pleased about. I hadn't drank in a while and wasn't going out mainly b/c I didn't want to drink. How easily I am persuaded to do otherwise. My neighbor calls and tempts me with a night of karaoke and cocktails! AND I wouldn't have to drive since she lives next door. So after a couple of "oh, come on Lisa"s I ventured over to her place. It's amazing how after a couple of sprite and vodkas we all became VERY confident in our singing abilities! After a few duets and timid solos, we soon found ourselves battling it out and concentrating REALLY hard on the words! HAHA!!! I'm just thinking of how serious we got after a while...I wish we had some pictures!!!! The next thing I know it's 5am and I'm finding my way back to my place...wide awake! Of course, once I got home and let Preston out and laid on my bed, I was a goner!!! I'm proud to announce that the next day I only had a headache...could be b/c I slept most of Sunday!!

The office was really quiet today! Kinda strange! And it rained...yuck! It's been sooo humid lately and now we got more rain! ICKY! I'm ready for the fall! I'm so over this 100 degree humidity!!! I'm still debating on my vacation to Vegas! I hope I'm able to go...but who knows! I'm so flakey sometimes! I can't stand flakey people. Ok...time for some reading while it's raining! Peace out!!!! :)

Why do men have nipples??

So every morning, I get to work, turn on my computer and read the MSN page that pops up when I get online! This is where I get all of my oh so important information that helps me get through the day. Today I decided to share with you an article that really caught my attention. NO, it wasn't about Raffy Palmeiro or Al-Qaida or even what's hot for teens these days. Instead, I'm sharing with you information that I'm sure has been burning in your mind for as long as you can remember....

Why do men have nipples?

To answer all of your questions, I am pasting the only part of this article that actually attempts to answer this (although, as the picture implicates, there is an actual book about this, but also answers other "odd" questions for you).

"'While only females have mammary glands, we all start out in a similar way in the embryo,'" the authors explains. 'The embryo follows a female template until about six weeks, when the male sex chromosome kicks in.' Men, however, have already developed nipples."

Did I just read that embryos follow a female template!? I KNEW IT!!! Women rule even in the uterus!!!! haha!!!!!

Ok...on to other less important things. I need to get my car inspected...but right now my horn doesn't work so I can't just go bring it in and get them to slap a sticker on it. I was asking my neighbor how to fix my horn and he made it sound way more difficult than I'm willing to imagine. Grrr...I wish I could just walk everywhere (minus the 90-100 degree heat). We would all be in much better shape if we didn't depend on cars to take us everywhere. Of course, I have no room to talk since I work less than a mile from my apartment and still drive my car everyday.

I need a vacation. I don't really care where, I just need to get away for a while. I'm still thinking about going to Vegas in September for a friend's wedding, but I have so many other places on my list. NYC, Europe, Chicago...oh well....all in due time!!!!

AGGHH!!!!!

OK...so i'm reading these other blogs and some are actually talking about some serious issues, so I hope whoever comes across mine isn't disappointed that I'm not discussing worldly news! :) Now on with the mindless blogging!

Do you ever feel like the world is totally closing in on you? Like you have absolutely no control and no matter what you do or how you strategize, there is no right answer? I'm not a very dramatic person (if you disagree...no comment, hehe) and I try very hard not to stress out about things that I have little or no control over, but last night I don't think I got a full hour of sleep b/c I had so many things running through my mind. I won't fret over them too much on here, but geez, I need some sunshine in my life. For the most part, though, I'm very lucky to have what I have. I know that there are millions of people out there who have less than me, or nothing at all. For that, I am blessed and I thank God that I have what I need. BUT, I still can't stop stressing over everything else...mainly financial, of course. I'm 26 years old and I just feel like I'm so far behind where I need to be...personally, monetarily and career wise.

(Upon further review, the rant and rave formerly posted has been removed...I sounded like a big baby!)

So...how 'bout that Harry Potter?! I'm moving very slowly in my book and I keep overhearing comments on the end of the book! AGGGHH!!!! I'll slowly but surely get to the end!

Adios for now!